wat shud i do??? i m hopeless...haiz...

its the 4th day of the new year...

i was sick on the nite of the 2nd day...dead sick...

tot i was recovered the next day but i was totally wrong...sick again on the nite of the 3rd day...

today...whole day no appetite...just cant stop thinking abt her...

haiz...i hav fallen in love v a girl...fallen real hard n deep...

since tt "day"...she is the 1st girl i ever love again...

i just duno wat i m doin....n m i doin it right???

i m suffering by just thinking of it...

i just love her too much...dun wan to lose her...

told her everything on 18.11.2009...i even remember the time...its almost midnite...

she replied the same answer to me again...

but my feelings for her is set...n i told her i will wait for her...

but i just duno whether she is taking me seriously or not...

i just dun care...coz i love her...i love her very much...

day by day...week by week...month by month...

i miss her more n more...love her more n more...

1 look...just 1 look of her for a day...i m satisfied...

b4 the sem break...i gt my studies to take care of so it was still not so difficult for me...

but now...sem break...all alone in setapak...ntg much to do...everyday just cant stop thinking of her...

every time there's an outing v frenz n she is goin too...i will surely go...

even though we didnt talk much to each other...its fine v me...

just by looking at her...i felt content...i felt happy...

now...just a few days didnt c her...my world is upside down...

miss her so much...

i m such a useless guy...i just dun hav the guts to do anythg...

i m afraid tt by sms-ing her everyday...i will fan her...as she is quite busy...

(...sometimes i just duno y...her replies felt so cold...i feel sad every time...)

sometimes she let me fly high into the sky...feeling very happy...

sometimes she makes me hit hard onto the ground...slamming me hard...

i just wan to let her know...i love her very much...n i dun wan to lose her...

but i gt a feeling i m losing her...m i???

but anyway...just wan to let her know...

i m still waiting...

i love u more n more everyday...

i miss u...

wo ai ni...

Jin...

failure...

haiz...

week 12 ald...

2 more weeks to go...

did quite bad in my prob & stat test...

& also my BA....

haiz...

just duno wat to do...

feels so useless...

feels such a failure...

feels....haiz...

haiz...now my mind is blank...

afraid??? ya...

mr. chua...

i reli gt study my prob & stat...

but haiz....

duno m i worth to b in tis course...?

i just duno...

felt like crying but...wats the use...totally useless...

abit cant face my parents...

my teachers....

my frenz...

haiz...

such a....failure....

haiz....

shud i continue???

m i able to continue???

god knows...

but...deep down...i reli dun wan it to end like tis...

haiz...

useless failure...

jin

week 5.............

ARGHH!!!
time TELEPORTS!!!!
so fast week 5 ald...
week 6 gt calculus n business accounting TEST!!!
week 7 gt programming n tt blady prob n stat!!!!...n mayb gt japanese quiz!!!! DOUBLE ARGHHH!!!!
week 8 gt discrete maths!!!

haiz... day by day pass by like water flowing...
everyday wake up go uni...then back...
morning not enuf slp blur blur go to uni...
evening blur blur back again coz of those lecturers...
lecturing as fast as the speed of light...
omg...duno how m i gonna take those test...ARGHHH...

now in the mid of memorizing those hiragana...
haiz...japanese is counted in the cgpa...
but japanese is the least of my worries...

i wan to watch transformer 2!!! n ice age 3!!!! ARGHH!!!
dunno when can go watch...

mayb goin back to jb on week 6 or 7...hehe...

tts all for 2day...

ユジン

1 week after the 1st day of uni...

finally...
internet connection is stable...
our condo does not hav a port for the cable internet connection...
so broadband is the only option of us...
1st we tried p1 wimax...
i hav a very bad impression for it...
during demo...
the minimum speed tt p1 guy gt was 0.9-1.0 mbps...
and the highest it can reach was 1.8-1.9 mbps...for home pro plan...
it is consider quite gud as we r staying on th 19th floor...
so we decided to go for it...
even tough it was rm199 per month...

after we registered...
we waited eagerly for 2 hours...for its activation...
when the time time finally comes...
we cant on9...
theres no signal...
we tried every direction...
then finally an orange signal...
we speed test it...
omg...upload speed is faster than download speed...
upload-0.3mbps...download-0.2mbps...
WTF!!! max speed is 2.4 n we gt tt???!!!
then we tried again the next day...
we gt green signal...
was so happy...but bullshit...IE n mozilla went hang when it is on green signal...
we were very fed up...
i, kee beng n i-jiao immediately took lrt n ktm to return the p1 wimax...

meanwhile, ah xin n the group staying in the 12th floor just registed maxis broadband...
but cant gt a signal...
so we took it to our house n tried it...
to our suprise...its functioning...
quite gud speed too...
so now...we r using maxis broadband...
lucky can on9...if not...dare not imagine...

so...
continue my previous blog...
actually the next day was ntg much...
just went to times square the whole day...
n went swimming at nite...
then sunday went back to jb ald...
haha...

UNI LIFE
started class without ID...
friday paid the bill...
monday no id...
tuesday no id...
those who paid in uni gt their id immediately...OMG...
duno wat UTAR n PUBLIC BANK is doin...
when i finally gt my id...
its nearly the end of the week...
i missed the 1st lecture of programming n probability...haiz...
ntg i can do...
tis sem i gt to learn to new subs...
1. BUSINESS ACCOUNTING
which i nv touch b4 in my life...
2. JAPANESE
which i wanted to learn a long long time ago hehe...
now i can converse v my cousins n uncle ald hehe...

the rest still same old MATHS...
but very much difficult...
attending those classes hurts my brain haha...

ok tts alot for 2day haha...
mcm SS-ing in here haha...

~JiN-JiN~

TOUR DE KL...HAHA...

the whole journey to kl...

15 may 2009
woke up at 5 am...
zzz...got ready and at 6.30am drove to zhaoyu's house...

then at abt 7am started the journey at highway...

1st pit stop is tangkak...
haha must fetch ms. hen to kl too...
after abt an hour towards our journey...
it seems tt theres not even a single car is infront or behind me...LOL...
heres the proof...b4 reaching tangkak...
theres a part of the highway was covered by mist...whooah...
cant c clearly lo...
reached tangkak at abt 8.30am...
when we met ms. hen...
she said she just woke up n showered...didnt expect us to reach so early...=.=''
then we went to eat 'bak kut teh'...
then we continued our journey to kl at abt 10am...
halfway thru the journey...was goin at abt 130~140km/h...
i noticed some of the cars from the opposite direction kept flashing their high beam...n there's no car infront of them...
then i started to gt alert n slow down...
then out of the blue...all the cars started breking...
all drove into a single lane...
i started to freak out a bit...coz u know...the speed limit is just 110km/h...n 'aheem' wat speed did i drove???...
wah... we saw a whole lane of police cars... they were checking a few cars...duno wat happened...lucly i pass haha :P...

pics r with ms. hen...

we go to ms. hen's aunt's house 1st in cheras...n omg...just speechless...c for urself...
we r stoping by to let ms. hen to take her thgs...
her aunt is a very nice person...
she even cooked lunch for us...hehe...
met v her children...
2 girls 1 boy...
those girls r...so cute!!! hehe...

she even pose for me hehe...peace...:)


after lunch, they started playing v their toys...
n our ms. zhaoyu started recaping her childhood memories haha...
started playing v their toys...haha...caught her red handed haha...
ps: zhaoyu if u c tis...dun blame me ah haha...

after the 'fun', we drove to setapak...
pv10 to b exact...
yup hehe our condo!!! hehe...
reached there to meet up v our landord n lady...



tt's our living room...
tis is where me, keebeng, n i-jiao will b sleeping haha...

v beds of coz haha...

these r some of the views from our balcony...

nite views...beautiful...twin towers were like diamonds...

tt nite zhaoyu's bro took us shopping...boughtt stuff n went back started washing the toilets haha...
slept past midnite...very tired...

will update the next day 2mr...stay tuned haha...

4th May 2009...

haha met v ravi anak lelaki ramasamy...
went badminton v frenz...
performance lacks abit coz body stilll aching from saturday's badminton match v kl uncles...
damn pro...
power n skill...
very nice game haha...
talked v frenz n found out tt hao hao gt gf ler wor...
i m still single...HAHA...
found his blog n his gf's blog once i reached home...
OMG...unbelieveable...
when did hao hao change to a mushi guy???!!!
oh well...love is a strong thg...haha...
anyway congratz to hao hao n hope he is happy v his gf hehe...

RAVI!!!
find 1 day we go school kacau haha...

arghh!!! ntg to do!!!
almost all the movies in pps i've watched zzz =.='''
arghh!!!
friday gt gathering hehe looking forward to it....
but the 1 tt i cant wait the most is 13th may hehe...
mr ong kee beng n ms hen pei ting will b coming to jb haha
planned the places i wan to bring them
haha n then 15th may!!!
we r goin kl!!!
haha CANT WAIT!!!!
blood boils v excitement haha!!!!

haha tts all for today...

~JiN-JiN~

1st of may...

cant sleep...
kept recapping all the thgs tt happened during tis whole year...

it reli feels like its just yesterday i 1st came to kampar...
the new n empty room...
those empty streets...
new faces...
just with a blink of an eye...
here i m...
1st of may 2009...
to think of it...
just ONE more day...
i will be leaving tis town...
leaving...tis leaving may be 4eva...or it isnt...
leaving bhind tis better than wat i expected environment....
leaving bhind memories...
leaving bhind...many thgs....
now i m packing up my stuffs...
getting ready to leave...

when i 1st came...
felt gud to be in tis town...
met v many many frenz...
1st class was v TD2...
...haha enjoyed being v them...
3 months...just pass like tt...
then sem2...
changed to TD10...
1st thought was...wat the...13 ppl only????!!!!
but after a while....my thoughts had changed...
its gud being in such a small class....
but then....another 3 months pass again...
many thgs happened...1 of them is very sad to me...but wat to do...life must go on...
sem3...
tis sem...our class moves in a group even more haha
go to class...all go tgt....
after class...oso stick tgt...
in cafeteria...2 tables r enuf for our class...haha
but if ponteng...oso the whole class ponteng....=.=''
7 weeks...pass by...
NOW...waiting for the final paper...
its just too fast...
i wil graduate foundation....n move on to degree...in setapak...
another new environment...
reli cant bare to leave tis place...
its true tt ppl say when its nearing the end...
ppl tends to think abt the beginning...
now i kept thinking of the 1st day i reach here...
KAMPAR...GOOD BYE...

*PS: must pass management....guan ying ma poh bi...

~JiN-JiN~